What in the WORLD???

I know I KNOW!!! How long has it been? 5 months. 5 MONTHS! I could tell you there is a reason I haven't been on for so long, but that would take DAYS!!! So I will give you the short version.

A Christmas Prayer (Part 2)

As I said in my last post, Truman's prayer for Christmas was answered. What I did NOT say was...so was mine.

I had wanted to get home to see my grandma. She wasn't doing too well, and I mentioned to Don, that I REALLY wanted to see her. So...we went home, and I got to visit with her.

Growing up, grandma was our "designated" babysitter. I always loved to be with her, and she always made me feel like there was nothing else she'd rather do than be with us kids. She was the kindest person you'd ever meet, and she always made me feel like I could do no wrong.

I was so happy to be able to visit her, and then...four hours into our 12 hr. trip home, I got the phone call from my sister Andrea. Grandma had just passed away. I COULDN'T believe it! In a way I really could because she really wasn't doing so well, but...I JUST SAW HER!

When my sister told me this I felt like a part of me had gone too. You see, I am a very sentimental person when it comes to family and to tradition. It is hard to explain, but I felt like my old life (of being a kid, and having my family the way it was when I was little) had just ended...I guess the fact that I had just turned 30 a couple months earlier didn't help either...but that's another story.

ANYWAY-grandma's passing put me in some sort of funk, because I really didn't want to let go of my "old life". But...I really didn't have a choice now did I? So, I have come to the realization that I had this unconscious habit of holding on to the past, and that really isn't healthy at all is it?

So now I look forward. I remember grandma with all the love and honor that any one person could have. I miss her terribly. But I still look forward. I have so many new memories to make for four little children of my own, and my prayer and goal is to make my kids feel as loved, and wanted, and appreciated as grandma made me. That way her legacy lives on through them and their children.